NEW ENDINGS !

I READ A SAYING ONCE THAT SAID, “ AN OPTIMIST STAYS UP UNTIL MIDNIGHT ON NEW YEARS EVE, TO WELCOME THE NEW YEAR IN. A PESSIMIST STAYS UP TO MAKE SURE THAT THE OLD YEAR LEAVES”.

I GUESS THIS YEAR I FIT INTO BOTH OF THOSE CATEGORIES. I WAS MORE THAN HAPPY TO SEE THIS YEAR DONE AND OVER, SAYING GOOD-BYE TO 2007 WAS A JOY. YET I WAS HOPEFULLY OPTIMISTIC THAT IF I STAYED UP AND WELCOMED IN THE NEW YEAR, THAT I WOULD HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE TO GET IT RIGHT. THAT SOMEHOW, THIS WELCOME WOULD MAKE 2008 GREAT.

OF COURSE IT WOULDN’T BE NEW YEARS, IF I DIDN’T HAVE REGRETS, THINGS I WISH I COULD DO OVER, CHANGE, TAKE BACK. I BELIEVE IT IS ONLY HUMAN NATURE TO WANT TO BETTER ONES LIVE, ONES SELF, MAKE IMPROVEMENTS, SET HIGHER STANDARDS. BE A BETTER PERSON. HAVE A BETTER LIFE. TO SEEK JOY AND BE HAPPIER.

I FIND MYSELF IN NO HURRY TO MAKE ANY RESOLUTIONS FOR THE NEW YEAR. I TEND TO HAVE A HABIT OF MAKING PLANS, SETTING GOALS, CRITICIZING AND MOLDING MY LIFE AS A DAILY EVENT. SO FOR ME, I FIND IT BETTER TO MAKE AND/OR “TREAK” MY RESOLUTIONS OR GOALS ON A DAILY BASIS, I DON’T WANT TO GET LOCKED INTO A YEAR’S WORTH OF DISAPPOINTMENT, AND FRUSTRATIONS.

I WANT THIS YEAR TO BE DIFFERENT, I KNOW THAT HAS TO START WITH ME. I DON’T WANT TO JUST LOOK FORWARD TO A NEW YEAR FOR A “NEW” START ON ALL MY “OLD” HABITS. I HAVE TO INITIATE THE CHANGE.

SOME PEOPLE SAY “TODAY IS A NEW BEGINNING” I DISAGREE. I THINK IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE A “NEW BEGINNING”, WE CAN’T GO BACK AND CHANGE OR ERASE OUR BEGINNING. I’M NOT EVEN SURE WHY YOU WOULD WANT TO. IT IS OUR BEGINNING, OUR PAST THAT BECOMES OUR MEMORIES, OUR GUIDE TO LESSONS LEARNED, EXPERIENCES LIVED, CHOICES MADE, GOOD OR BAD. ALL THESE THINGS BECOME A CULMINATION OF OUR LIFE’S STORY, THAT BUILT OUR CHARACTER, THAT MADE US WHO WE ARE. I CHOOSE TO LOOK AT IT AS TODAY IS THE DAY I AM GOING TO START MAKING A NEW ENDING FOR MYSELF, MY LIFE.

I HAD A FRIEND SAY TO ME ONCE, YOU KNOW THAT “HAPPILY EVER AFTER” IS ONLY IN FAIRY TALES. YES, FOR THE MOST PART I VIEW MYSELF AS A ROMANTIC, HOWEVER I THINK I ALSO HAVE A BALANCE OF REALISM. SO THIS IS HOW I EXPECT MY “NEW ENDING” TO GO.

MOSTLY HAPPILY EVER AFTER!